More than half a century ago i was born in a little town called Neede, Netherlands. I survived kindergarten, made it through preleminary school and even received my high school diploma. After high school i held a variety of jobs. Housepainter, the profession i was trained in, a short serie of jobs that are now known as flex jobs, were i mainly applied paint in some form, and finally fourteen years at a diary company. A reorganisation made an end to those fourteen years and i pursued a carrier in writing crime novels, but luck wasn't on my side. In 2009 my younger and only sister sadly passed away. She got a week shy to her 41st birthday. In the following years i had to face the declining health of my parents. My father already survived prostate cancer and was a heart and kidney patient for years. Dementia took away what i used to know as mom. It was still her, her looks, her voice, the touch of her skin, and yet it wasn't. They both past away in 2015. seven month apart. In 2017 my life took another course. One i had not seen coming. It was never a plan, a wish or a desire. Sure, i like to help people, but i'm by far not the only one. Yet, my life took its own course, made me search for answers, made me relive my youth, my teenage years, my scolioses, my narcessistic father and everything else that i had experienced. It gave me the opportunity to free my system and my being from emotional pains, fears, anxieties, ego, stress and illusions i used te believe. Underneath that pile of pain i found myself. I didn't know myself, didn't love myself. LIfe gave me the opportunity and the means to derive a theory of everything. About how the universe came to existence, how it works, how life on planet earth came to be, how humans came to existence and who we really are. I do not know if it's true. I don't own the necessary evidence, nor do i have the means or expertise to perform experiments to support my theory. It therefore remains a theory.
I'm Robert Allard, human, highly sensitive and an understanding but playful soul.